Hey! This blog has been neglected for the past month as I have been trying to focus more on my job and being productive, creative and using my time more wisely. Not that blogging is a waste of time, I've just forgotten about it. I'm kind of happy about summer ending, because that means more holidays to celebrate and less hard work at my job (ha ha)!
I had a mental breakdown after an incident with work-related stuff and I spent a lot of time worrying and thinking about what I want to do with my life. I feel an inner pressure from myself to be productive all the time and also a pressure to figure out what I want to do if I wasn't working where I work at the moment (working at a recycle center is not really my dream job - sorry boss). What do I want to study? What do I want to become?! Worrying about these things are not necessary, especially since they never lead anywhere, it just make me feel more stressed out.
I'm always so stressed and restless at the same time, mentally or physically. I just got to enjoy my free time more so that work won't feel like such a huge thing and then daily life gets easier, right? Got to stop that work-sleep-eat-feeling. I have started using my journal/calendar more because that really helps. Planning my days more, getting stuff done, doing more exercise and so on (I also have to accept the fact that sometimes I won't get shit done, because I don't have time or the energy for it). I feel like I have to treat myself like I child, with the regular food, exercise and sleep schedule but it is so worth it and important for me.
Also the lindy hop dance semester started again so now I'll finally be dancing at least once a week for several months and it's so fun!!! Halloween month, *cough* I mean October, is coming soon too and I love keeping my mind busy with planning for things like that. And also! Since I had a few holiday-days left to take off work I got some extra days off so now every single 3 day weekend I have left (which is every 3rd week) has suddenly turned into 4 day weekends! Yay! It's worth it not being free during summer so I can do this.
Even though my summer has as usual been mostly filled with work I still
enjoyed it. It's been a really good summer with hard work. Bye-bye summer!!!